How is my life this weird at the age of 60?
Like WTF?This is a long boring unnecessary rant of aggravation. Nothing important here
This really is just a long exhausting rant. Thought I should post something. It’s been a minute.
Someone went by with a name of a cartel group sticker on their car. Most of the time that stuff is nothing. Ignore the stickers. Even if it means something so what.
I am not owned. Live in your delusion all you want.
Anyone reading my stuff knows back in 2003 I reported my boss at ASU for sexual harassment, hundreds of child pornography on his workplace computer and concerns about vulnerable youth he was left in hotel rooms alone with on “special” trips.
After going to the advocate at ASU in 2003 and being moved from my position to another position, things got weird.
The advocate failed to inform me that if they moved me to another position that somehow it removed my chances for a lawyer.
Immediately I started seeing dead, skinned birds everywhere I went on campus. Sometimes off campus. These people have a sickness.
I just figured it was hungry homeless people until it kept happening over and over. Per usual I thought, “weird” brushed it aside, registered it and moved on. This was IMMEDIATELY upon reporting my boss.
In AZ, I reported 2 sex offenders. Of the two sex offenders, one named Todd, went to prison and probably out by now and the other a Mormon Bishop who retired from ASU with tenure probably still doing his dirty deeds.
Then, “road kill” (an army favorite) dead animals, along with muffler campaigns. Then my sons regrettable father, magically the sperm donor appears right after I return from my coincidental trip to Washington state. Then the missionaries start showing up at our complex, the car break ins, the move to Utah, etc…. All accelerated after my trip to Washington state in 2003.
The secret vans hiding in the parking lot at Willow Springs Apartments in Tempe, the fake rape next door, Randy King from phoenix and several others infiltrating my AA meetings. It’s fine anyway.
Turns out most of those people I was sober with were not sober at all and most were keeping secrets from me.
I don’t see a search party out for me anywhere after cutting everyone off.
So no great loss there.
No AA for me.
Why do we live in a country that coddles and protects sex offenders?
I know I go on about this a lot but come on.
Sex trafficking boys in the 1970s, nothing was done and I can only imagine how sophisticated and intricate a money maker this human trafficking still is.
Why are grown men and women enabling and protecting this kind of deviance. What is wrong with you?
Where are the throngs of Trumpers protesting against the abuse of children?
Criminals protect criminals that’s all I know.
By the way, being gay is not a crime nor is it immoral. It’s just being gay. There is nothing wrong with gay people. Grow up.
At least around gay men I don’t have to worry about who is going to drug and rape me unless they are working for these people.
Even through all the weird stuff from ASU and my time in AZ to include multiple repeated instances of weirdness I never once thought the government, ASU and its entities or the members of the Mormon/Scientology/or any other church would retaliate against people without any regard for the law.
I had no idea about the Mormon second anointing or how churches attack critics. I’m not criticizing them by the way, “I AM CALLING THEM OUT FOR THEIR CRIMINAL ACTIVITY” . There is a huge difference.
I was in the military for 9.8 yrs why would I consider that our country would protect perps more than victims. Oh yeah …. That’s right.
Just this little bit, This all started just after getting out of the military in 1998 and getting sober in 1999.
It was Like they were just sitting there waiting to pounce. WHY?
Why does someone hate me so much that they literally destroyed some of the most important years of my life? WHY? WHY? WHY?
I had no idea some Mormon or politician or who the hell ever from somewhere in the world attached themselves to me and purposely set out to sabotage and destroy anything and everything positive in my life.
Who does that? A five year old, maybe a ten year old … maybe a teenager but grown ass people in a position of power acting like petty children and men who would rather protect their own degradation than protect their victims of this childish extremely expensive game.
Oh No not a single state can come up with enough money to make sure every person is clothed, fed and housed and educated but they sure can come up with enough money to destroy lives. How magical.
You don’t have to be black or white or religious or gay you just have to be someone they want to abuse. It is that simple.
Why are CRIMINALS GETTING MORE RESPECT AND MAKING MORE MONEY THAN ANY OTHER GROUP OF PEOPLE IN THE WORLD. HOW ARE THEY GETTING AWAY WITH IT?
What happened to the news report about the 252 bodies buried by police and not spoken about. What happened to the assassination comment report on Trump and his buddies? Where is the leaked story about the government still running a stasi cointel program hurting innocent people and letting their buddies and criminals go free.
Where are all the Trumpers who wanted to save the children? How come so much outrage at a pizza parlor or Hilary Clinton but I don’t see any of these so called saviors of children protesting the cruelty that these churches inflict on victims and the secrets their churches are keeping?
Where is the news story about how the police get kids into the system when they are young on purpose? Where is that investigation? They did it to me, probably my mom, my son (and he was running from bullies).
How many families have to keep suffering generational trauma because of some back room list?
Why hasn’t anyone asked Ron Desantis why he doesn’t want to be “woke” ? what is he hiding and who is he protecting and the never Trumper caved and is now supporting Trump?
Let’s blow this whole ship wide open and just see what his supporters would do? Bring it On! Let’s get this crap over with already.
The bigger question….Why are Mormons (or any religious group) obsessed with me. Especially the men. Why?
I am a protected class and my choice of “No Religion” deserves as much respect if not more because I am also part of a smaller class of people growing by leaps and bounds more and more everyday. The “non-religious” . Dun dun dun
If people need religion have it. I speak spirituality. I do not care if people believe in religion or go to church or any of that. At least go there knowing the truth and if you know the truth and continue to go you need to answer for that.
People need groups of people they feel safe with and accepted by and have commonalities. I get it. I would love that. Unfortunately there isn’t a group for people like me.
What gives?
I DO NOT SEEK THESE PEOPLE OUT, THEY SEEK ME OUT. I AVOID CONFLICT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.
I have tried to be open and have gone to so many different churches hoping to find one honest one that wasn’t protecting perpetrators or involved in questionable activity or spewing lies to their flock.
I have tried so hard but it seems that churches are the exact opposite of what they say they are and not at all what I believed they were supposed to be.
When churches start putting material gain and protecting perpetrators of heinous crimes above humanity and compassion and caring and holding abusers accountable, please take time to ask yourself this one question: “if I know the truth and I am still here, why am I still here?”
This is the world you have today. No child is safe. That’s just the truth.
Anyone who doesn’t understand why I feel the way I do is not paying attention to my story.
You can thank the lunatic fringe for why I no longer believe.
Why do we need that anyway? It’s a legit question.
People can just choose to be and do good as much as possible.
Further more These newly arrested (Covid Convicts) children do not need to have their lives ruined. Why do we keep doing this to them. I think of my story and I know I was absolutely without question set up from day one.
The law enforcement realm of our nation is so broken right now. The way we handle young people as if they are bad forever is WRONG!!!!!! We are flawed as humans. All of us!!!! so what. No kid should be sitting in jail for 30 yrs. Come on! Please be a WOKE person. Stop the insanity.
Stop doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.
How do we know those kids haven’t been targeted as part of this generational degradation program? Why don’t we start holding whomever keeps running this program accountable and stop hiding the governments abuse behind the term “National Security”.
teenagers and their parents can’t get jobs. If you’re on the same list as the rest of us your employment will always be in jeopardy.
I get it. I understand there is a lot going on and the world is about to implode. A war has already started and no one has the balls to say it.
I constantly fight with myself on who to hold accountable. Part of mine is the list but there is more. And it’s not good.
except a couple of you know who you are and what you are responsible for. You know you should be held accountable. Too much of a coward to be honest.
I am not in this situation because of anything I did. This started so early in my life it was planned and executed with precision.
You grow up in a country that spouts, “FREEDOM. , Democracy, EQUALITY. STAND UP FOR YOUR RIGHTS. Let your voice be heard. Blah blah blah blah blah.
NONE OF IT IS REAL. IM STILL SCREAMING FOR JUSTICE 58 yrs later.
The second you do that you are put on a list and your life destroyed and played with by a bunch of assholes who laugh at raping you through any means possible.
I am so disgusted to think that things that have been done to me and my family were done on purpose by fellow Americans on American soil and the founding fathers should be rolling over in their graves and rising up for a new revolution because of this.
The timing is also very close to Arturo (one of the babies my mom had to give up from a rape) contacting our family looking for our mom. He was told she was deceased and we never heard from them again but things did get weird. This is the side of the family my mom wanted to keep us away from. I still don’t know why but I’m starting to think the Mexican government might have some of the same capabilities as ours and they would have been able to purchase Pegasus.
All of this stuff, This is the exact opposite of what it means to be an American (to me)and any American participating in the destruction of others for the pure joy of it needs to be cursed now and forever.
I want every single person that ever meant and still means an ounce of harm against us to suffer my entire 60 years of pain and suffering for one year. FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR!!!!!!!! NON STOP!!!!
If everything that’s been done to me is so great and so legit and a matter of national security then you won’t mind having the 60 yrs of pain and suffering returned to you for one small measly year. Right? Enjoy
Then start reparations for every targeted person.
Since they dowl out money like it’s nothing to start unnecessary wars they sure as hell must have enough money to pay every single targets compensation for all the houses, careers, educations, loves and medical care lost, personal relationships destroyed, marriages broken up, etc….
How do cops and firemen and fusion center employees live with themselves? They stand there with their badges and guns and pieces of paper that can destroy a persons life by the misuse of one single word or phrase or one misunderstanding and then look at the rest of us like they are so confused about why the world is so unhappy with them. These people have access to weapons of mass destruction. These weapons have been and are being used to experiment on and abuse people. To include children.
THIS EQUIPMENT KILLS AND MAMES US AND DEGRADES US EMOTIONALLY, MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ON PURPOSE!!!!!!!!!!
Not once my entire life would I think a single American would be behind something so horrible. For 60 yrs I never knew I was being looked down upon, groomed or anything else. I didn’t know why we never had a normal life. I felt it but never did I imagine something like that would be done on purpose.
First I wanted to be a nun so the Catholic Church messed that one up. I wanted to be in D.C. or the Peace Corps or something. Do documentaries, save people, make a difference for planet. That was my plan. This was the reason I choose the Airforce instead of MCAD Art School.
I knew I could get a college education and get a leg up if I made a couple of ranks and could do art on the side.
I even thought about running for positions in government. I wanted to make a difference in this world not be abused by it.
I wanted to be a writer a photographer a journalist but every step forward someone else decided to make me look the complete opposite of who I really am. It is disgusting how they’ve been setting me up.
I guess I made it too difficult to pull off with all my running away to save my own life and all.
I ran to save my own life so many times To the point that they have made it so I can no longer run when I am in danger. Unless they let me. Whomever they are. Just sit on that thought for a moment. Let that sink in.
They can drop me to the ground in a nano second if I so much as turn with the intention to save myself. If this building is burning I can’t run out of it unless they let me. If they drop me and no one comes by to lift me up and out I will die burning to death.
It’s hard to hear myself say this because it all seems so obvious now. I never knew I was being silenced.
Who does this to someone.
My heart hurts so bad some days I can barely handle it. I could not find a way to describe how the pain feels until I watched a documentary.
I just watched a documentary on youtube about a Korean man who was in Japan for school when the Korean War broke out and he was called to duty. I feel his pain for the life he lost and sometimes that pain is so deep and so hard and so devastating I’m surprised I don’t have permanent scars on my face from all the tears I’ve cried lately.
It is a gut wrenching documentary called “A Korean man who couldn’t go back home after entering Korean War” on a channel called K-DOC.
To think anyone no matter who it is or what country it’s coming from would treat people in this way is heartbreaking. Such a lack of humanity. What do you even say anymore.
I am on the side of government and police and fire and all that. You have to have checks and balances. I absolutely support the ones who would never do this to anyone. The ones who understand what it truly means to be an American.
Then there’s this other trick that happens. It’s real and I am not the only one effected. It’s called “no touch torture”. Men, women, and children are able to be raped without someone being in the room with them, how many children is some ash hole loser doing this to now?
No it is not made up. This is a real thing. I am a regular re-occurring victim. Still.
Imagine sitting alone or with people in your house and having sensations all over your body like you are being raped. Imagine something like that happening to a child or teenager or a baby.
How they do it without being wired I do not know but it is without question possible and is done to multiple targets. I can’t find any paperwork or information on it but my own personal first hand experience says it’s possible and just as devastating as being raped while awake physically in person.
Then think further, to have this capability and access to do this type of activity the person will be at a higher pay grade so either a doctor, a researcher, a nurse, a sheriff, a cop, a fireman or some emergency tech worker.
Otherwise the person who has the power to rape someone will be in a position of political power and beyond rich and more than likely not a good person.
Maybe they are on an app or a computer just pressing a button or however they do this stuff and they have no emotional attachment. Rape is still rape no matter how you do it.
If any of this equipment is used to abuse people in any way shape or form…..YOU ARE NOT A GOOD PERSON.
I do not care what you tell yourself.
Someone needs to research how many people under the age of 19 have gotten in trouble, arrested, put in juvy and have also suffered prior and subsequent abuses.
I don’t want to say it but police are basically acting like The STASI when they do these things. Whether they mean to or not is another news report but if you look at the RISS system you can see the entirety of the set up
EVERY SINGLE TARGET IS TOLD THEY CANT BE TOLD ANYTHING ABOUT THEMSELVES BECAUSE IT IS A MATTER OF NATIONAL SECURITY!!!!
How does sexualizing or sexually abusing people OR ABUSING PEOPLE PERIOD protect national interest ?
IT WAS PROVEN AT GUANTANAMO THAT THESE METHODS DO NOT WORK AND ONLY ACCOMPLISH HAPPINESS FOR THE ABUSER.
When has abusing anyone ever helped the person being abused?
NEVER
IT HELPS NEVER!!!!!!!
When has raping a veteran with an extensive childhood history of sexual abuse ever helped her especially through “no touch torture” ? When has that ever been a benefit to that veteran? Me, I’m asking for me.
The only person abuse helps is THE ABUSER. YOU!!!!! (Whomever you are)
We live in a country where I watched police pay someone just to wear all black as they laughed and walked away from under a shaded tree. Then they smiled and waved at me as they walked back to their squad.
I saw that same guy 2 more times targeting other people. Last time I watched him and drove by and he just smerked. Haven’t seen him since and then all the homeless suddenly got cleaned up a month later. It is very weird out here. Like a giant Petri dish.
Time to start researching the scientists and researchers who head these offices of human behavior and investigating Deloitte.
Not gonna lie it’s been a weird month. Almost a blurr. Started out promising but then, as per usual, need I say more.
It just keeps getting weirder and weirder. I just want the truth and the secrets and the lies to be exposed.
Whomever this new bout of hitters they definitely want us in Washington State. WHY? Who is here that has spent this amount of time getting me here? Why? How am I connected to Washington State?
The journey here to Washington State started long before I ever went in the military or had my son. Who the fuck is in Washington State that wants us here? Are they safe? Do they intend harm? How much? And is anything being done to my son that he is not talking about? He tells me nothing. Maybe there is nothing to tell. I don’t want to cause him trauma so I’ve dropped it.
I never told anyone anything. My mom asked one time and I lied about what happened or mumbled under my breath. I learned very very early no matter who I tell no one really wants to help me. Not having people care about me and most especially not having anyone help seems to be part of their psychological torture they put me through since I was in diapers. So no, these are not good people.
I wish I would not have lied but would it have mattered? It is obvious someone has purposely set up my life so that no one ever actually cares for me or treats me like I matter.
There is no way certain people are not involved in this. One of them might be reading this right now. How do you continue to breath and not expose what is being done and what you are doing?
Who is here right now that brought me here? Why and what are their intentions?
That same entity also enabled either Vladimir Putin or a doppelgänger that looked like him to be on a boat trip around the San Juan’s in 2014 watching my son and I. It’s like a crazy joke. “Hey, did you hear the one about Vladimir Putin on a boat?”I bet there is a whole lot of coverup about that. I had video and posted it everywhere. Nothing. No response from a single person so it was probably blocked from being viewed.
There was a huge shift in my life somewhtime before I got out of the military and another shift between 2003-2014. Only three anomalies exist during that time that I can think of and Vladimir Putin watching my son and I on a boat through the San Juan’s in 2014 is one of them.
Yeah, that’s a topic no one wants to talk about. Nope not that one.
So far at this location the least amount of things have happened but it has not stopped.
It also never means anything when there is a pause in activity and I think it is only because I caught the people that sprayed pepper spray in our apartment. Haven’t seen them since that was over a month ago.
With that said some absolutely insane things have happened that even if I shared here and you all know what you know ….you wouldn’t believe me. Plus I’ve decided not to share everything. I have my reason. Some things should be protected.
I don’t know the true culprit until someone tells me. Some things should remain protected just in case I’m feeding information unwittingly on here to people who don’t need to know certain stuff.
I’m kind of mad I feel I missed an opportunity after freaking out about something or I did the right thing and freaked out. No one will ever know.
Im tired of being left out of the loop. I’m fascinated and mortified at the same time and completely sad that I don’t get to know how all this is being done and pulled off.
Normally when activity stops or slows its Usually a sign they are regrouping.
Washington ain’t looking all that great anymore. Definitely not the place I thought it was and way more white supremacy stuff than I expected. I knew it was bad in the south because I grew up down that way but never imagined the Pacific Northwest was so racist. Never. I even got targeted by men at the Martin Luther Rally. Did not expect that.
No idea who to trust anymore. Tired of being taken advantage of.
Some stuff happened a while back and I was like , Finally, someone heard me. someone heard my screams. Then it was like,NOPE. Still just messing with my head. The emotional roller coaster is insane.
My stomach is constantly in pain and I still can’t get a doctor out here.
Getting a dentist seems easy Peasy but an actual doctor? Been here for almost 2 years now, one year in Bellingham now almost another year in Seattle and still no doctor. Still sick. All the time.
Now I have to worry about my son and what might they be doing to him while I’ve been engrossed in my own issues. At first I thought it was some weird VA therapy and kind of went along with it until I realized I was being abused and not helped.
What do they have planned for my son since this is generational. He still hasn’t been able to start his life and he will be 20 this month. No job call backs, no school we can afford. I’m not letting him go into debt.
My money from the sale of the house was going to put him through school.
We all know that’s gone trying to get away from the targeting cost me over 50k just for driving and hotels and food and emergencies, counter surveillance equipment etc…. I did not know you can not get away.
Why would a cop do this to people? All they did was change the name from the stasi station and called them “Fusion Centers” .
I have no idea if they are doing anything to my son but there seems to be a lot going on like what they did to my mother, what they’ve done to all of us.
The flipped coin also says we are on the verge of World War III and there ARE foreign entities who want to break the United States apart. They would love to be the cause of dividing our country and laugh while we blame each other or our government for the targeting when it could very well be coming from another country and American sympathizers becoming traitors.
There are foreign entities within the United States paying a lot of private dollars causing chaos across the U.S. that are targeting innocent Americans trying divide us. It is in the ART OF WAR. “Divide and conquer”.
Yes, China and Russia and other countries wanting to influence politics are infiltrating every system within the United States and other NATO locations.
This is always the first and foremost in the back of my mind. I am an American, in America and yes as shitty as this country may or may not have been to me I will stand up and protector her still today.
So if someone is encouraging hate at a time in society like today where hate seems to be the only thing on the menu, maybe stop hating so much.
As angry as I sound I don’t hate anyone.
All this focus on Anger and Resentment and blah blah blah….you don’t think these countries are causing discourse on purpose. Are you on crack?! Please have the courage to see that as a huge possibility. India has the same capability with mind control etc…
What’s being done to us is done all across Russia, China to their people.
Americans don’t have each others backs anymore. Hell, soldiers don’t have each others backs anymore. Veterans are targeting Veterans.
My OWN COUNTRYMAN RAPE ME.
On purpose with intent to rape.
And has since I was a little girl. Seems to be all I was born for. 60 yrs of a life wasted that could have mattered. It’s sick.
There are a lot of people pretending to care about targets just to keep setting us up and do it proudly WITHOUT REGRET.
That’s about as un-American as you can get. (In my eyes) At least in the AMERICA I gave 9.8yrs of my life in uniform for just to be used and abused by the very people I thought I was helping to protect.
America is no fun right now.
Words I never thought I would say.
Don’t get it twisted.
ALL THE COUNTRIES SUCK RIGHT NOW!!!!!
ALL OF THEM!!!!!!
DO ANY OF OUR WORLD LEADERS SEE THE DAMAGE THEIR ALLOWANCES FOR THIS DEGRADED CRIMINAL ELEMENT OF SOCIETY HAS CAUSED? DO THEY TAKE ANY RESPONSIBILITY?
To get away with what these leaders have gotten away with you need international help and lots and lots and lots of secrets to take to the grave.
Sure hope selling out an entire planet to get away with your debauchery was worth it.
Don’t spend all that cash in one place.